It's 23.01.2010, the day that you and all of us have been waiting for - to get together and pay you a visit on this special day!

First and foremost, "Happy Birthday Honey~!!".

Yeah, I might not be able to take lots of pictures with you on this special day of yours anymore. But I'm really gladiolus that your family had invited me to pay you a visit on this special occasion of yours.

I hope you love all the sinful food we've bought for you :) Hope you'll become fatter! xD

Chatted with your mummy just now. Yup! She's very strong. And I'm glad that all your family members & friends are~!!

I know that your can't bear to leave us. But that's fate darling. God loves you. That's why he is bringing you to stay with him and those cute and sweet angels - because he "sayang" you more than us so, you're there first.

So my dear Honey, be a good girl alright?

Move on and stay in your "new home". Don't go back and stay in your old house anymore. You don't want us to worry for you again right? Staying at your old house is not good for you so, please my dear, please move on and stay at your "new home".

Fel promise you that she will go visit and accompany you to chit-chat and "irritate" you when she got the time. Alright honey?!

Secondly, seriously, I'm trying to be a good girl. That explains why I'm able to blog this post for you on this lovely Saturday night - FEL DID NOT GO CLUB & DRINK TODAY~!!!

"- Remember to eat breakfast
- Remember to take good care of myself
- Remember to drink less
- Remember to club lesser
- Remember to * lesser
- Remember to shop lesser
- Remember to save money
- Remember not to step in further
- etc, etc."

YES! I still remember all the things that you've once said to me. Everything still remains very vividly running though my head all the times, anytime ; anywhere.

No worries about FEL anymore alright?

Thirdly, I hope you can bare in mind whatever things I talk to you today at your "new home". I really hope you can hear them. Come to my dreams and tell me if you heard them!!

I'm sorry I promised to bring you OCK's mushroom puff. But that bloody shop wasn't open on Saturday!! I thought it was so I din't get it on the previous day thinking that I would want you to enjoy a fresher ones.

Promise you I'll get you 1 when I pay you the next visit.!!

Lastly, I still wishes you will be happy in that another life you got. Come to my dreams and talk to me more about it alright? IMY ♥




[ "Happy Birthday" AhTan ]

Finally done shopping for AhTan's pressie! :)

I hope she won't find them FATTENING! ♥ Hahahaha!!

Tomorrow is Friday!! Who don't love Fridays?

But FeL DON'T!


I'm still thinking if I wanna go Zouk-ing on tomorrow after work cos I've gotta wake up real early to visit AhTan at her "New Home". Aftermaths, I needa go pick up some stocks and pass to my valued-custormers!

I'm so packed with stuff to do till I've got no time to source for my 4th job!


I'm feeling real lethargic but I think I'm still able to squeeze out some time for my 4th. WISH ME GOOD LUCK!

Just hope that I don't fall ill cos' - 1 day MC = ALOT OF $$$$!

Oh yah, I think the guy that sits opposite my desk (Chandra), finally got "irritated" by my "NON-STOP REMIX"! WAHAHAHAHA! Before he sits in front of me, I'm already coughing real loud till he could hear from his far away old seat.

After months of sitting in front of me, FEL IS STILL COUGHING!! :D

Happened to saw Chandra during my 10mins break from the training today and he pop out a question right at my face which makes me go %#$^$#!#%!#.


WHAT THE HELL~ HOW AM I GOING TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION? If I know, do you think I wish to be sick?! -.-" LAME!

Back to training's role-play part and he said something FUCKING HILARIOUS till I couldn't held but laugh out frigging loudly!!


And the worst part is that HE DIDN'T REALISED HE SAID SOMETHING WRONG!!!


Ok. I know I'm very random.
Gotta go catch some rest before Friday approach! :D
Night peeps!





[ No Time = No Money ]

Sigh~ Suddenly those emo monster came bugging at me again!

Well, thought that FEL was already well better off alone for a long time. But I was wrong!!

What am I perusing?

What satisfy me?

What do I actually want in life?

What I actually like/dislike?

And WHAT THE FUCK am I doing now?

- Screwing up my frigging life!!











[ Cruel Life ]

[17.01.2010]

Welcome Mavis to my 'LIM' family - Mrs Jasper Lim! xD

Pictures pictures -

the very pretty tea & bowl set!

"Xi"

me & my sotong hair!

2 pretty cousin & 1 handsome cousin-in-law at the back!

my very cute darling with his new specs! ♥

my 2nd auntie and her family~

♥ AUNTY CATHERINE!! <33>

A VERY FATHERLY LOVE. By: Adrain

cutie darling!

my 2 nieces & 3 nephews!

Dong dong says: "Yiyi very pretty!" HAHAHAH!! xD

cousiiee and cousiiee-in-law

Uncless

my precious GrandMa and her 4 generations~!! :))

my beautiful MUMMY ♥

yous truly ~♥ looks frigging TIRED!

You can view rest of the pictures HERE.

[18.01.2010]

I'm so lethargic that I overslept for work today! Thanks to the wedding!! @#%$#%^. But well, I'm really glad that all's over now. And everything was a big success!!

Things go according to schedule and nothing goes wrong!! - Thanks ALL parties involved!

Thanks Kelvin for sending me & my 3 MA's to the wedding!

My precious house is now so clean and neat, other than my wardrobe! Shall pack it when I got the time to do so and pass Beibei the clothes....

P.s: I create a chaos at work today cos' I don't know what went wrong and boss didn't received my SMS though I forward a copy to him too. (All parties received other than him!) And nobody could locate me cos I KO-ed~! :D

>>>>>>>>>>

To Suxin
I'm very surprise that you actually read my blog!! Thanks for all the comforting words. Please stay strong as the family needs you a lot! And you still need to take care of your brother on behalf of your jie too.

Study hard and be happy. You jie wouldn't wanna see you all get so sad over her.

Remember about the dream thingy? I believe she will go in your dreams someday. Let's wait patiently alright?!

Do remember to take care of yourself and I will see you on this Saturday. If there's more details, please SMS me to update me alright?! :)

Cheer Up!! ♥

[ LOVE is in the air ♥ ]

[16.01.10]

15 days had gone. But your image is still very vividly flashing across my mind. Where are you now my dear Honey? Why did you appeared in Beibei & Shidah's dream but not mine??!!

Since yesterday, the thought of you suddenly became very strong!! I thought that I've manage to surpress them all deep down already. But lil' did I know that I still can't lie to myself.

I knew that I shouldn't have said this. And I should have live and move on with my life happily w/o you already. But I REALLY STILL MISSES YOU ALOT!!

I seriously missed your naggy-ness! PLEASE COME AND NAG ME!!!

Life have been going on well for me w/o your existence for the past 15 days.

Suxin and family have been very strong too. So you don't have to worry. I've been consistently contacting Suxin and getting updates of everyone in your family - Your mummy is very sweet too. Just like you!

As for Yixiang, I'm very proud of him too. The last time I chatted with him was days before he went for his trip. He is doing good too.! Although, I can sense that he is not that good when he talk about the day the incident happened, but at least, he is trying!
[Oh, and i asked him to wear that shirt you bought for him to visit you next Saturday!! Are you enthusiastic to see him?!! I KNOW YOU ARE!! DON'T DENYING!! Heehee!!]

I'll be visiting you at your new home in exactly 1 more week!! Are you excited to see me?! I will be bringing you some of your favourite food together with your beloved friends, family and your YIXIANG, for you to share with your new friends out there. I'm sorry, your mummy says that we can't bring any gifts for you on that day, we are only asked to bring you all your favourite food.

But nonetheless, I know as long as me and the rest were there, you will be very delighted already, right? :)

I will try to search for the nicest MM plush you like and give it to you on your 49th day alright? So just wait patiently!!

So my dear Silly, if you are reading this from the above, please blessed everyone of them including me too, alright?! Oh, and don't forget to come into my dreams and give me 4 good-winning numbers so that I can strike 4D on your behalf ah~!! xD

I missed letting you scold every Wednesday cos' of 4D. Heehee! So I'm here to provoke you so that you will enter my sweet dream tonight and scold me!! Don't hide anymore, I know you had been enduring hard for the past few days! :P

... And talking about 4D, I still remembered very clearly that I woke you up from your super sweet dreams telling you that WE strike 4D~ HAHAHA!!

And ended up, I made a mistake because I remembered the number WE bought wrongly! HAHAHAH!! $500 gone~ You $#^%^&*% me a lil' and went back to your sweet dreams and continue your $#@%&^# the next day you see me! Heehee!

K, I think I gonna stop before you ask me not to "irritate" you again!! AH! I miss that word "irritate" coming out from your mouth!! Come, come and scold me tonight ah!!

I DON'T FREAKING CARE!! IT'S A DEAL~! SEE YOU TONIGHT!!


P.s: Marlon bought you your favourite Tarts from Pilippines!! 1 whole box hor!! I will bring it to you on Saturday too~ Please pray hard I don't finished them before Saturday comes! :)

I know if your are here, you confirm will let me finish them. But I DON'T HAVE YOUR PERMISSION NOW LA~
[Still the same sentence, "COME TO MY DREAMS - tell me if you allow me to eat your food!!"] Heehee!




[ I STILL MISS YOU!! ]

TBIF~

I'm fucking bored in the office right now - that explain why I'm blogging in such hours.

Tonnes of things just fell on my head in the office. Bek-Cek!! I don't know why, I just felt super lowly paid~!

I'm fine with having many work task being assigned but higher pay. NOT many work task but lowly paid. SUCKS!

Good Prospect VS Good Colleague - How would you gauge?!

Many choose prospect because Prospect = MONEY~

Money is not the most important thing in life.
BUT
THEY ARE ESSTENTIAL~!!!

There's a saying in SG "No money, no talk!". It's very true! Who's going to pay your hospital bills when you are sick?! Who's going to pay you salary when you are hospitalised? Who's going to sponsor you food when you got none?

Job search in process. YUP! In the office with window opening BIG BIG letting everyone knows I'm job hunting~

Increase my pay if you treasure my experience. Say good-bye to me if you can't afford~! Simple and easy! :)

Let's not waste each others' time!



[ Job Hunting In Process ]

Wednesday - Lottery Day~!

Ok! Random~ But I do REALLY hope that I can strike some extra penny this year~ It's been a year since I even strike Ikan Bilis~ Yawn!

Busy busy busy week for FEL! I hope Sunday come fast and end fast for FEL really had enough of it~!!

As if Bro's wedding is my wedding~ I'm obligate to do & settle for them so many stuff. Ok. Nevermind about that.

And I'm forced to pack my freaking messy house (exclude his own room) all by myself~!! It's like so WTH~!!

And guess what I found?

- A pikachu keychain!!!!
I've already forgotten that I've once like Pikachu! LOL! I only remember the pink chubby monster working in that pokemon hospital as a nurse is freaking cute! What's her name? Jigglypuff? Argh! I only know currypuff and powerpuffgirls!

- A stack of Sailormoon Card!!!
To be more detailed, it's a stack of Sailormoon Pokercards! HAHAHA! I'm already such gambler when I was in Primary school! LOL! xD

- Letters written during my PRIMARY school days
[To my best friend: FELICIA] HAHAHAHA!!!! I read through a few of them and I can't help but to LOL frigging loudly like an idiot! "Can u help me to ask ** why she don't wanna friend me?!", "Who is ur best best best best forever forever friend?", "If I don't friend ***, will you still friend me?". LOL!!!

- A bag full of my stickers collection
I found many stickers!!!! Winnie the Pooh, Power Rangers, Teletubbies, Hello Kitty and Melody~!!!! Many many many of them!! Still very pretty and kept in the plastic sheet! Should I throw them away?! They are antique now erh~! :)

- Many Primary school pictures
Heh, for those of you who are in the same primary school as me better beware! I might just mosaic my face & post up random pictures in FB and tagged YOU!! Wahaha~!! Those were the days ; My enjoyable childhood!!

Shall continue packing that leftover 3 stations tonight and hopefully I found something more exciting to share! HAHA!

3 more days to Sunday!!


[ Double Happiness! ]

A week plus had passed, but somehow or rather, it still slip off my mind sometimes that AhTan is gone~

Well well, thanks to all, FEL is feeling so much better now~ No worries, no worries!! :D

Pictures taken on Da Endorphine Concert (06.01.10) is up in my FB~ Sorry for the poor quality pictures because I bought a cam w/o a battery out~! SUCKS!

And you all can't view the rest of the pics taken with Ah Dar's cam bcos' she had private the album~

Oh~ My pic can be found on Stomp!! OMG~ -.-" Can't believe it~!

6 more days to Bro's wedding~
I'm getting excited for him to shift out~! Heh heh!
*Evil Laugh~*

My beloved Steffy will be moving to her 'NEW' home today. I'm sorry I can't be there to send you off because I'm afraid that I'll break down. Really sorry. I don't want you to see me in that state, so I rather not to send you through your last journey.

But rest assure for my heart will still be there with you.

I will never forget the smile and laughter that you had bought to me. The naggy words will always remain in my heart no matter what happened.

Although, FeL had learnt to eat, sleep and 'not cry', FeL really DO NOT KNOW how to go to work w/o you!!!

FELICIA IS VERY RELUCTANT TO GO TO WORK TOMORROW~!!!!!!!!

From tomorrow onwards, there'll be:-

No one there to call FEL every morning.

No one there to ask FEL what she wanna have for breakfast.

No one there to meet FEL at POST office and walk to the office together.

No one there to accompany FEL to the toilet to wash her water bottle every Monday.

No one there to 'steal' coffee powder and make coffee with FEL everyday.

No one there to call 649 to gossip & chit-chat with FEL.

No one there to lunch with FEL.

No one there to wait for FEL if she got to OT.

No one there to walk to the bus stop with FEL.

No one there to accompany FEL walked back to office if she left her things behind.

No one there to accompany FEL to NTUC for marketing.

No one there to share a packet of milk & Honeystar with FEL.

No one there to sing along with FEL.

No one there to teach FEL chinese song.

No one there to help FEL with those freaking chinese character.

No one there to shop with FEL when she had no companion.

No one there to count down with FEL to PAYDAY!

No one there to care for FEL.

No one there to nag at FEL.

No one there to listen to FEL.

No one there to advise FEL.

No one there to encourage FEL to buck up when she is down.

No one there to share the telepathy anymore~!!!


Silly girl!! Why must you leave before me?! You are not even 21! You are still very young to leave this world!! You always tell me you cannot die 1st because you are not even 21 yet! You are still not an adult yet.

But why did you leave me now?!! Big silly~!! I have yet to pass you the birthday present know? 20 more days to your 21st. But I would never get a chance to celebrate with you anymore......



Dear Honey,

Yes, I might still be very sad and stunned that you are gone. But rest assure that I will bear in mind all the things that you have said to me. All the memories that we share.

I will buck up and live my life on smiling and not crying anymore for I know that you would not want to see me crying for you anymore.

Stephanie is a very very strong girl. Felicia can be a very strong girl too~ Don't you worry for FEL anymore ok? Move on and stay happy in another world. I believe all the sweet and cute angels will be there to look after you.

My greatest condolences to Suxin and your family. Promise will be there to help you look after them if any of them needs my help! So my dear silly, please please please rest in peace.





Last but not least, your favourite song to go along WITH. Thanks for intro-ing and teaching me sentence by sentence how to sing this whole piece of song. LOVE IT bcos' you like it! :)








[ HONEYTAN, IMY!! ]

02.01.2010.

Day 2. But I'm still feeling so speechless about the incident that took place. Still dwelling & stunned by the fact that she is gone forever~

My beloved Steffy, I miss you.!







Thanks to those that were there for me since yesterday. I appreciate it a lot! Thanks for all the cheering and encouraging words + the unconditional sms and calls to check and see if I'm alright.

Thanks for everything. I may not be very good now. But I believe I would. I hope, I guess, I wish...

Thanks Sam for your super touched specially dedicated post in your blog. YOU MADE ME TEARED again!! But still, LOVES with many thanks!!! ♥

Thanks Baobei for those stupid SMS that pissed me off and that never leave me alone attitude. Thanks for your shoulder and your hug and the warm kisses.

Thanks B1 for never failed to check on me to see if i'm alright. Thanks for reminding me to sleep, eat and take my medication which I totally forgot!! Thanks for those comforting words. And thanks for being there to guide me thru when I'm super lost.

Thanks JG for the huggies and the drinks and that super touched SMS! Thanks buddy love!



[ RIP Steffy ]

To my beloved Honey aka AhTan aka SteTan.


Very glad to know you in my suckiest 2009. thou my '09 sucks, you helps a lot in making it lively!! we joined the company together on the same day not knowing that we would never spend a day in the office w/o each other!! That's fate!


We went to work together no matter late or early, make coffee together, lunch together, knocking off together (you will still wait for me thou you have a date with your fellow mates), share the same umbrella together, toilet together, gossip & chit chat our way via 324.


You never failed to buy breakfast for me every morning, no matter rain or shine, no matter you are early or late. when i'm sick, you insist on wanting me to eat at least some "dou hua". when i'm sick, you forbid me to eat my favourite choco muffin/Ock and insist on wanting me to eat something light! when i merely said that i want that something for breakfast/lunch the next day, you'll always bear that in mind.


When we over-spend and were at our poor-est state, we share a packet of cereal & milk together every morning, magiee-mee together during lunch.


When i'm down and needed somebody, you're always there encouraging & advising me. when i needed a shoulder and a listening ear, you were always there even thou you are busy. when i did something i ain't supposed to do, you'll start your combo nagged the whole day.


Most of the time, i do not have to talk a lot, you will get what i wanted to say. that's our telepathy!!


Although i'm elder than you, but it seems like you are taking care of me more than the other way round. i'm very glad that the parcal i ordered for you came on the 31st dec 2009. at least i got to see how happy you were when you received that.


I'm sorry i do not have enough time to did my part as your "er-jie". i'm sorry for always making you worry and nagged at me. i'm sorry i forgot to wish you "Happy New Year" before you left!!!!


I'm sorry i couldn't be there to celebrate your 21st birthday with you on the 23rd Jan 2010 and i'm sorry i could not take a lot of pretty pictures with you anymore.




You will always be remembered - TAN.!!

I really miss you a lot!!!

May all the lovely, sweet & kind angels be with you.

R.I.P. my dear ♥




..... The memories that we shared, will always be in FEL's heart. I promised! ♥
























XOXO,
Felicia 01st Jan 2010