There's only 1 word to describe my feelings now

And guess I shall remember this special day for that special someone causing this special feeling that make me ESPECIALLY feeling sick! Feeling so damn fuck now! Hard to imagine what I've done and what I've receive from that special someone.

Everybody only see the part when I've gone insane~ But, anybody know the story behind it? Anybody know what I've been through? Anybody know how much hard work I've put in it? NO!! Nobody will know. Nobody can see. Nobody will understand!!!

It's not that I wanna make things to this situation. I guess maybe because I've got enough of all this shit. I think I've changed and accomodated MORE than enough. The rest is left with that special someone out there to feel and understand what I've been through and change to the better.

But i seriously don't think that this will come true because that special someone will never think for others!

And well, there goes the story~! Fuck!!

P/s:

(1) Apologise for some sarcastic remarks that I've made to those dudes out there who are not involve. The message were sent out of furious and I hope that you guys will understand how I feel and that I really don't meant anything at all. And still, you guys proved 1 thing to me - friends help friends and lies means lies.

(2) To that special someone, I'm willing to apologise if you STILL thinks that it is my fault because I make you lose your face infront of those dudes. But think TWICE about it in my shoes for once and for LAST.

I don't have to explain and tell you more for what I've done. If you have the heart to feel and think for others, YOU'LL UNDERSTAND (but the facts is that you've NEVER understand) I do hope that things can come in good condition and ENDS in good condition.

ONCE AGAIN, FUCK IS WHAT I COULD SAY NOW!