Sorry, I was very emotional this few days. So there goes my blog. I can't think of anything to write now as my brain is very much empty and confused.

If you don't feel like reading it, you can just click on the 'X' button on your top right hand. Nobody is stopping you. I don't know what I've mention here that makes everybody know what had happened to me. I don't feel anything wrong with my post.

If you all care, please stop asking me if I'm alright. I'm NOT! Not at all! People out there please stop waking me up from my dreams. I'm very happy here dreaming in my own world. If you all care, let me be. Even if it means seeing me sad, ok?

I know it's not right! But I can't bring myself to the reality at all! You people know what I really want now! So please please please stop asking me if I'm ok, if I'm fine. I can tell you I'm not. There goes the answer you all wants.!

If you all really want to help, just quietly be there for me. Stay by my side. Let me go ahead and keep dreaming in my own land and don't let me see the truth.!

You know baby, I can never be happier without having you by my side. I know I'm really wrong this time. But, why don't you just give us a last chance? Believe in yourself that you still love me. Don't force yourself to say something cruel to me when you don't mean it at all! Seriously, I really don't think i can live without you. Without your love. Come back to me please! I know you still love me. I know it. You can lie to me anything but not this because I can still feel your love and your feelings to me. Don't try to do funny thing to gek me cos' it won't help. No matter what you do, I'll still be waiting for you to return. I know I did something wrong to make you lost your path, but I believe I can find a way for you to come back! If you allow me this one last chance! Don't let go of this so easily by those influence around you. I said this to you before " Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter, cos' I've got you" remember? I love you baby!

You know, I've lost my words. I simply do not know what to type in here because I wanted to keep this as a secret to myself but ended up making the whole world know what's happenning.!!

See, I told you I was born loser. Useless. Good for nothing...

I can't do a single thing right. Why do I always have to screw up my own things in my own hand? Why can't I just do a simple thing properly and do it right?!

You know? People always say live without regret. But right now, not even reaching my big 21st birthday, I've got so many so many so many regrets in live already. How can I continue to push myself from moving on further? No excuse to do so right? Yeah, I know it.! Don't need to answer and I know the answer for myself.





[Believing in my own dreams]