Days hasn't been very good for me ever since my last post. I've been crying and crying and crying. Waiting and waiting and waiting.



This is what i've been through since 26th Jan 2008.



The happy moments that i have are always not lasting. Read my post again if you need proof. Happy on certain days and than a grumpy post few days later.



Acutally my wishes are very simple.



Happy and live my life to the fullest so i'll not regret.



But, this seems like such a difficult task for me to complete. I can never have very smooth and easy life for me. And i simply can't hold any longer.



I've tried so hard to and learnt to take things easy. But this caused me to have insonmia or even worst. I can just burst out into tears and collespe. K-O! Down on the spot.



Nobody will understand how much i've been through and how hard it is to be living in such miserable life.



Sometimes i just wonder if God wants to make me suffer in all this pain, why didn't he wants to take me away? Why doesn't he make me a handicap or something so i won't have any feelings.



I'm very sick of elaborating more because it makes me drip non-stop. I hate this. I hate myself for not being strong to face every single difficulties. I'm such useless person