ish juz another ordinary day todae.. woke up early in e morning.. and i'm juz feeling so moody n sleepy since i woke up.. dunno why.. stop tinkin so much.. i hasn't got my PMS.. so don link em 2gather ok??

hmmm.. e mood swing actually keep me frm concentrating on my work slightly.. til abt noon.. i suddenly juz burst out into tears.. and e most surprising thing is tt i'm in e toilet cryin for almost 45mins.. almost 3/4 of my brk time is gone..!

e feeling is like accumulation of everything.. everything tt i've been facin n keep inside.. all juz burst out at once til i realli cant stop crying.. if it's not tt my brk is gonna end, i tink i'll stil b crying.. [laughs] i realli think i hasn't cry enough noe? i realli stil wishes 2 continue crying all e way til i juz let go of everything tt has accumulated for so long.. hmm.. laugh at me if u wan.. i don mind.. and i don care.. dis is juz me.. !

i swear i'm realli feeling alot better now.. and tt crying out does realli helps me frm continue workin 4 tt 4.5hrs.. at least it makes me cocentrate abit more..

thx all my caring frens tt's always there when i always needed ur help.. and thx 4 keep laughin at me and calling me a crybaby everytime i burst out into tears *which i tink i'm realli am* (even in e middle of late nite) and no matter how tired u all r.. u all wil always b there 4 me... i realli appreciate ur patient wit me thou i'm always saying e same thing..

Bb FeL wil b strong.. don worry.. thou i cant promise tt i won cry anymore.. but i'll learnt 2 cry less n takes thing easy.. i'll try 2 let go of wad i should let go.. 4get abt e bad memories.. look 4ward.. and take thing easy.............

so many things juz happened.. why does all e bad things always fall on me?? y can't i juz lead a simple and normal life?? y does e happiness tt i have always don last?? why do i always have 2 keep everything inside when there's no one 2 share with me?? things r becoming more n more complicated now.. i realli dunno wad should i do.. who can b there 2 guide me thru???

i know i'm complaing.. but let me juz finish once and 4 all can?? i realli cant take it.. i'm juz afraid tt if i don, i wil start crying again at nite.. it has been lasted 4 so long.. crying all alone in e nite.. as i don wan 2 make ppl worried 4 me anymore..

---->updated [11.37pm]
y do u always have 2 lie? lying to me ish ur hobby?? i simply noe wad u r doin lo.. always say tired.. always sae bz.. but u can always do so many things with e others.. y not me?? am i realli arn't tt important 2 you anymore?? where do i stand in ur heart now?? i tink i don even stand rite at e btm lo.. i'm nowhere.. if i'm realli tt important.. u won neglect me at all.. not even if there's onli 5mins. it's not like e old you anymore.. u always sae i'm unreasonable.. why?? did u tk e time 2 sort things out wit me first? do u tk e effort 2 explain???

u can do so many things.. but not answering me.. not explaining to me.. not giving me time.. so how do u wan me to trust you? n don 4get i've caught u lying 4 far too many times already.. how do u wan me 2 ever believe you again? dis is not e way by gaining my trust lehs.. show MORE effort on e things u do to me can?

:+:Bb FeL Will Be A Strong Gal:+:

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